Had to re-register to comment... (forgot my old account and password, and which e-mail I was using... oops).
Anyway... I have to say I've been there regarding
Thunt's haters. while I haven't made comic pages (in a very long while), I continue to write stories and often have put them online, and or published them in short stories collections.
I have written about a lot of sensitive, serious issues as a way to have a healthy outlet for some of the traumatic events I have gone though myself as a deaf woman. Yet, total strangers who do not know me or even my personal history will attack me in the same way they did
Thunt. They say all the same things they told him... that somebody going though such experiences wouldn't have reacted in such a way, etc. Sometimes they base it off their own personal experiences, but sometimes they haven't had such a thing happen to them yet they assume that people still has to act a certain way for it to be realistic.
In my case, it was often far more hurtful for me than it was for
Thunt. Mainly because some of the "haters" I got did not seem to believe that I had gone though some of the stuff that my own characters did, and that I was actually writing this as an outlet for my own feelings. Because apparently I reacted in a "non-realistic" way in real life... so I had to be lying about what happened to me.
They just didn't seem to get that not all women are going to react the same way to an sexual assault, because each one of us are individuals.
As a deaf woman, I've had to put up with a lot of shit from ignorant people, and as an result I had to learn how to be a "fighter" but at the same time learn how to keep my inner calm. Because if I did not keep calm at all times though a type of meditative state, then the constant flak I got from audist people would had gotten under my skin and drove me to suicide.
For those who do not know, a Audist is a type of person who is specifically bigoted towards deaf people... it's basically a form of Able-ism in that they think that because a person has a form of "disability", that they have to be lesser than a "normal" person somehow.
Now keep in mind that I can drive just fine, hold down jobs, etc... I even can listen to music with the help of hearing aids. So it's not like I'm literally missing out on anything, you know? In fact I'm very able-bodied and is able to do anything that a "normal" person do... as an result I don't even consider myself "Disabled".
Yet there are people do does not see it that way, and often will treat me like a little child despite the fact that I'm well into my thirties now. They assume that deaf equals dumb, that I had to have an dosage of mental impairment alongside my deafness. This is not true!
But this was the type of attitude that played a role in the sexual assault that I endured when I was in college. The sexual predator on campus first heard about me and thought that because I was deaf, that I would be easier to control, etc. Just like how a child might be easier to control than an adult during..... well, you get the picture. He practically got aroused from that thought alone. Ugh.
In my case I reacted way differently than both the offender and everyone expected I would. you see, I'm what TV Tropes and a few of my friends would call "The stoic"... but it might be more accurate to say that I responded to a high stress situation like some creep threatening to hurt me if I didn't comply to his sexual demands, with "
Tranquil Fury". This was what I wrote about in some of my stories... which lead to other survivors claiming that the whole thing was "unrealistic".
Here's what happened to me in real life, and you can see for yourself whenever or not it was "unrealistic"?
When he was threatening me with bodily harm in order to get his way with me, on the outside I appeared to be nearly expressionless even though I did show signs of surprise. But on the inside I was going: "what? He wants to do that shit with me, and is clearly getting aroused at the thought of controlling me. FUCK NO, He's not getting his way." The more it went on, the more angry I got. Sure, a part of me was deathly scared that he would hurt me or even kill me, but the Anger was far more powerful than the fear itself. I acted calm and somewhat submissive while I waited for his guard to be down, and even took off my top off at his demand. It was then he made the stupid mistake of assuming that he had already won. He were in the process of dis-robing himself completely when I managed to find myself a pen within reach. It wasn't much in terms of a weapon.. but in desperate situations ANYTHING can be a weapon. Anyway, it did it's job pretty well as I stabbed him in the neck area with it, which led to a pretty impressive bloody mess. I was able to shove him, and make him hit his head against a table on the way down. He left himself exposed down there... so I used the bloody pen to stab him again, but this time in a far more delicate area.
While he was stunned and immobilized with pain, I was able to grab my top and escape.
It was only later when I was safe did I fully freak out about the fact that.. holy shit, I had almost been raped. Sadly for me, this wasn't the first sexual assault that I had experienced... although previous attempts had mainly been groping/etc rather than full-on attempted rape. They all left me feeling frightened or queasy afterwards when I got to a safe spot.
Yet, other women tell me that a lady wouldn't feel so stoic/calm/etc during an crime like that... so therefore my experience had to be bullshit?? So then they keep on ragging on me for "trivializing rape" or even for simply adding rape for the sake of drama in a few of my stories. Guh.